Recent Lessons

This past week, God showed me so much about who I am, and why I have acted the way I have for years.  One of the first questions in the Forge was, "Who are you and what are you doing here?"  That one question is going to be running through my mind for the rest of my life most likely.  However, this week, God definitely revealed to me some of that answer.

Our Forge class started our 18 hours of classes last week, which ranged from inductive Bible study, to theology, to practical life skills, to Leadership theory, to Sanctus (a class about corporate and individual holiness).  I have been praying and thinking about why God has me here in The Forge, a program I didn't know existed five months ago.  During our leadership theory class, our teacher emphasized the fact that leadership was about followership.  In order to be a "good," Christian leader, we need to learn how to follow Christ, have Him be our foundation, and from that to serve others.  This idea was counter-intuitive to me.  However, I felt as though God was telling me that the reason I was here was to learn how to be a follower and servant of others.  What that looks like, I have no idea, but I'm positive that in the future, it will be revealed to me.

In addition, over the past series of weeks, Matt, the Forge director, has been guiding me with questions about my life that I cannot answer, causing me to think about why I do things.  It has probably been one of the most challenging times in my life; it actually caused me to breakdown in front of him!  Well on Friday, our Sanctus teacher, who is a marriage and family counselor, talked to us about our identity and our foundation for living.  My foundation is the basis for my identity.  If my foundation is shaky or crumbles, my identity will go with it, which would not be good.  When I began to put the conversations Matt and I were having, with the concept of foundations, I didn't like what I was seeing.  My foundation was ego-centric, self-centered, and very proud and Christ, being my identity, so I thought, was built on a very sinful foundation.  Everything that I was doing was because, deep down at the core, it was benefitting me in one way or another.  So what am I going to do now?  Well, the first thing is that I understand what my foundation is.  That's huge because without knowing that, I cannot be transformed.  Next, Jesus has to become my foundation and my identity has to be found through Him.  I don't know how that is going to happen yet, but God's got a plan for me and my life!!!  It's not about me; It's all about Him!!